I am fascinated by humanity and its creations friendly misanthrop from middle of Sudetes.
My fascinations and interest are very wide, I do not identify strongly with any group. I look like some local goth queen, or - like one person said - the daughter of the God of Death and the Goddes of Sex, I listen to mostly black metal and pagan, folk stuff, but I wash the dishes to 80s pop and love to have early gothic stuff in my earphones in the bus. I love mythology, but I prefer some good mainstream prose than fantasy, I am in love in the darkness and dark side of cosmos, but I'm not convinced by some gore or kitch dark stuff in literature, I prefer the dark of every day. It is closer. And more real. By the literature, I want to know myself more. Learn to name things in me I cannot name earlier. It is important, because I suppose the sense of life is to develop. To grow stronger, wiser, more final yourself. Is to neverending change, entering the new levels of your consciousness. Of yourself, cosmos, tasting the shadow of the hundredfaces truth. To have result on the endless experiment called "myself".
I am fascinated by strong emotions, expression, controversy, cruelty; the strenght. That is why I am incessantly amazed by baroque art, late gothic art, romanticism, decadence, Assyrian sculptures, Egyptian Art, ancient Hindu architecture, black metal, mythologies, eroticism, history. The human world is an absorbing Chaos - in contrast to the endless kingdom of order, the evergiving Nature, or the World, or Absolut, or God. The consciousness of yourself is creating Chaos - but if you had got it already, it is the duty to go further. The World is obviously ambiwalent.
My dream is to be in place(or maybe I should say state?) of no information, no feelings, no thoughts, no sense of you being yourself or any individual entity. Nobeing. It is fun, because I glorify individualism, along with strenght and development, on the first place. Oh, I love contrasts. In me especially. I find interesting(or maybe fun, everything can be called interesting) that I have a lot positivist ideas on how should society work, a lot of idealistic opinions, really, and on the other hand I hate humanity at all. And I make great companion for party when I go out my cave once a year. Oh, wait...
The colours I use are not some expression of positive shit, blah blah. That is just how I see the world, I interpret it rather as energy tide, the real view or something. I also photograph, colour colouring books, dress myself and search for clothes, and advice my mother in her quilling stuff www.facebook.com/quillingani/?…
In the Hłasko's book "Sowa, córka piekarza", the character is asked who he is. "The witness in lawsuit agant the humankind".
It describes my thoughts on myself.